Benders

Last week I managed to lose the extra weight I had put on, and another 2.4 kilos, bringing my total weight loss to 14.3 kilos in 12 weeks. I was so very proud of myself, and all my friends were too. It is really starting to show on my body, and I can fit into size 26 clothes now, where as I used to be size  28.

But on Friday, I went to a mates place for a drink. We went out for dinner, and then another drink, and more drinks at her house, and I stayed on her couch rather than driving home. The next day I was hung over as hell, and woken up by her 1 year old daughter fairly early on. Eventually I managed a nap in the afternoon, before heading off to another friends 30th birthday party where we continued to drink into the wee hours before taking a cab home.

The next afternoon we had another friends engagement party where we were expected to drink, drink, drink and eat.

Slowly I started noticing that with all the drinking, my body was getting grumpy. The foods I was choosing started becoming comfort foods, as my energy levels dropped. When I finally got to bed, I slept for 10 hours straight, promising that today and for the rest of the week I would detox.

However, we had some left over pizza from last night- healthy pizza from Crust, but still not good for someone with an intolerance to doughy/bready foods like myself. Then we went for lunch to my favourite middle eastern bakery, which has just expanded significantly, so I couldn’t resist my old favourite chilli cheese zatar. Bad decisions are easy to make when your energy and enthusiasm levels are low. My digestive system is blocked up, and I am feeling very uncomfortable. I have bought some peppermint tablets which are meant to help with irritable bowel syndrome, so will commence usage soon, and will go for a walk/jog tonight. I need to keep hydrated too, so will start consuming liters of water, and will only have a lentil salad for dinner.

Now as my digestive system is struggling, I know that the feeling is not right and it has become clear to me that as a child and young adult, I never really knew the difference between blocked up and normal. I just traveled through life all blocked up all the time. I used to have IBS symptoms more frequently because of the foods I put into my body. And because of the frequency and size of the meals.

I know that it’s time to break this cycle, but rather than beating myself up for it, I am just committing to do something to break the downwards spiral before it’s too late and I undo all the good work I have put in. I am not stressing out about it, because I know that when I am properly rested, re-energized, and focusing on good thoughts, it will all just happen naturally.  Fingers crossed…